Must be doing something right

I fully expected to NOT be able to reach my goal of 110 by the end of the month, and the start of my vacation. I was doing the low-calorie thing and it was working, just very slowly. At about a pound a week and if I cheated on the weekend, the weight would be right back up a pound or two.

Let me stop right here and explain myself, I don't hate my body. My body has carried and given birth to a nearly 10 lb BEAUTIFUL baby boy and I'm proud of it. I also realize my stomach may never look the same. But, who's to expect the stomach of a 16 year old, when you're pushing 27? I don't. But, I do want to feel confident in my own skin, in a two piece bikini. And since I've been "dieting" and exercising I feel WONDERFUL. You cant understand what certain foods do to your body and how they make you feel physically until you stop eating them.

In the last 3 years I've come a long way. I may have been a smokin 105 three years ago, but I also ate like crap and smoked like a chimney. I'm proud of being smoke free for almost three years. There's a point where I never thought I'd say those words. I don't judge people for smoking,  I know just what kind of hold it has on people. It had on me. I'm just saying it can be done! I have my main motivation sitting at Grandma's right now. My sweet Aden. He's about to be two! He's talking up a STORM. It's still unreal to me and my heart hurts when I think about all the love he has brought into my life. Thank you baby boy, I love you more than the sun does shine and the moon does glow!

Back to the weight loss. It's happening. I'm down to 115 today. HOLLA!! This South Beach diet must be working. Or is it the Seabuckthorn juice that I've been taking going on three days? I'm not sure but I don't have to step on the scale to measure my weight loss. I can see it. My legs are slim, my face is thinner, my stomach is bordering on wanting to be flat. At this rate I'll totally make my deadline. Only down-side, I've lost a huge amount of fat off my ass. I always wanted a J-Lo booty, it just ain't in the cards for me yo. And that's okay too.

Monday "Weigh In"

So, I skipped last Monday. It was a crazy week. I was in a horse related accident, which left me with a broken tail bone. But, after over a week of healing I'm doing pretty darn well. I should be able to resume at least walking today. My weight loss wasn't where I wanted it to be though. Today I'm at 118.6, which is about 2 lbs off schedule. I feel pretty good about it though, at least I didn't gain or flat line without the exercise!

My new goal for this week is 116.6. If I do what I've set out to do my weight at the time of our vacation will be around 112. I'd be happy with that for now. My sister called me to let me know about a new "miracle berry" Dr Oz was featuring on his show. Sea of Buckthorn, it's thought it very well may prevent your body from storing excess fat. There was a study conducted on two groups of rats that were fed the same high fat diet. One group became extremely obese and had resulting health problems such as diabetes and heart problems, while the other group that was given the Sea of Buckthorn daily, maintained a healthy weight without any of the health problems the other mice had.

I totally ordered me some. I know, it's only a study on rats and considering I'm not obese it may not aid me in losing any weight, but it's worth a shot. Especially considering it's all natural. I'm still nursing Aden, so diet pills or anything of that sort is not an option for me. We will see!

Happy Monday!

With my son, I will NOT

Spank him.

Call him names.

Threaten never to speak to him again.

I will never stop apologizing when I'm wrong.

Use guilt or pull the "mom" card with him.

Turn my back on him in times of need or otherwise.

Make him feel as if he is not wanted or a bother to me.

Judge him.

Put my needs OR wants above his.

Criticize his wife or speak unkindly of her to him.

Force him to play sports.

Give him alcohol.

Make him feel as if he should marry a girl because she is pregnant.

Live vicariously through him.

Treat him differently than any future siblings.

Deny him a shoulder to cry on, a helping hand, an open mind, or unconditional love.

I know it's hard to say never, but I hope that I have learned from my childhood & past & I hope to correct those mistakes with my own son.

In a world so full of hatefulness and hurt, I just want him to feel secure, loved and accepted.

Hello...Monday

Every Monday, I'll be doing a weigh in... So, just to recap my weekend, I had a few slip-ups in the food department, but not too bad and I stayed within my calorie range pretty good. Today, I'm weighing in at 120.8 lbs! Yay! I met my goal for last week, which means my new goal for this week is 118.8. Hopefully I'll have that accomplished by Sunday.


I really must give a special thanks to the best husband in the world. He worked out with me 6 times last week. Yes, 6 times. And the man doesn’t have any weight to lose, at all. It's all toning for him I suppose, but he does it for me mostly. Which is awesome, who could ask for more?

Every time we go on our jogs I'm just amazed at how beautiful the little town we live in is. We live out of town, in the "country", and the back roads are just lovely. You can smell the crisp scent of spring in the air as we walk/jog down rolling paved roads, everything is green and wildflowers grow in the open fields abundantly. I always stop and pick Aden a couple, which he loves.

He gets the curls from me.


Happy Monday!!

Vanity Pounds

The baby weight is still here. 17 lbs of it to be exact. While I'm considered to be well within "normal" for my weight regarding my age and height, I don't feel normal.

So, I've started a low calorie diet that includes walk/jogging 5 days a week. I try to stay under 1200 calories a day with about half and hour of exercise. It's working so far. In December I was at 129, today I'm at 122, progress I suppose. But, we have a vacation planned in six weeks and I've set a goal of 2-3 lbs to lose every 7 days.

It's going to be hard. I'm not used to not being able to eat whatever I want. Hell, in high school I struggled to gain weight at 90 lbs soaking wet, completely different ball game now.

I'm ready, let's burn some belly fat!!

Here's a pic of the new bathing suit I've ordered and my main motivation. Yeah, It's vain of me, but not as vain as wanting to pay off my debt in the next two years in order to buy a  nice set of silicone C cup boobs? Eh? That's what I'm doing next in the vanity department after I obtain my flat stomach.

The "Sperminator"

Okay, after hearing countless stories about the "Sperminator", aka Schwarzenegger, and his "cheating" escapades, it got me to thinking. Why is it so effin difficult for people to just stay faithful? We hear about all the scandals that come from big celebrity names, but it happens everyday, to everyday people. Cheating has horrible affects on EVERYONE, especially when children are involved. I know for a fact that some people, mainly women, think it's just peachy to cheat and they'll get away with it because they have children to use as "collateral". Think again, people. If you will truly have SEX with another human being while you are in a committed relationship, than you don't truly love that person and should have called it off way before that ship ever thought about sailing.

I get it, relationships are difficult, but they're worth it. To have someone to love forever, to grow old with and share your life with, to have babies and grand babies together, isn't that worth it?


I'll be the first person to say that you really cant say you'd do something differently than another person has done, until you are put in their shoes, which of course you'll never be. But, this is one subject that I have seen, first hand, the devastation that comes from cheating significant others, and I can firmly say, I wouldn't do it. And if for some crazy, off the wall reason, I did, I wouldn't keep it from my husband. Which, I can also say with very strong conviction that if I did, my husband would leave me and I wouldn't blame him one bit because I would do that same, if the situation was reversed. The reason I say that is because if my husband was to betray me in such a horrible way, I could never get over it. It is the ultimate betrayal, hands down.

My husband and I actually started dating as teenagers after EACH of our then current "boy/girl-friends" cheated on us. Even then, being so young, it was such a horrible betrayal for both of us. Which maybe that's why we see eye to eye on that matter 100%.


In ending, I'd just like to say, feel the need for another? Seek some counselling to find out what the true meaning of your wandering eye is about. If that doesn't help? Save alot of hurt feelings, be the bigger person, and ask for the split.

In which I talk about the major sucking of this blog..

I did it. I let all the negative crap going on push me away from things I love doing. Riding? Eh, not much.. Blogging? Eh..pretty much fell off the map.

It's cool though..I've got some things on my mind...just a few. And I plan to write about it. Why? Because I have no shame. So, I'm giving fair warning to family and friends that read this (hopefully someone does), if you don't care to read about my sex life, weight loss, family issues, daycare issues..this wont be your cup of tea. Kthx

P.S. Yes, I still plan to spill my guts about Aden too, soon.